I am hurt pls tell me what to do?

my husband is getting an award for being top producer in selling, i am also an ociate, but bcos of my low morale and problems we have reg his affair i choose not to go , but today i told him t would like to come along, he did not sau No but his body language showed that he dont want me to come cos that women is going to be present and they have plands to go together, i am very hurt that today i am so unwanted by my hubby who loves me but i dont have good luks or money and i ahve to give in to this extend, how i i love him he wont know , thisa women has done so much to me for the last 2 yrs, i am daily going thru pain